I don’t think I’ll ever have the words to explain how I feel without you being here, and I know if you were here you’d think I was overreacting and explain the situation and calm me down. That’s what you were good at, you put me at ease, but now you’re gone I have to try and go through my memories all of our talks and long drives our fishing trips our cinema trips to try and find something you’ve said to act as an solution, I never thought you’d go. I took it for granted thinking you’d always be sat at that kitchen table smoking a roll up listening to radio 2 and running to open the back door when you heard footsteps because you thought it was mum coming down, she told me she knew you smoked at the kitchen table years ago and she didn’t mind, I never told you because it made me laugh. I hope I made you proud and I hope the years you were with us made you happy. There’s so many memories of you that make me happy and that’s what’s getting me through this. Thank you for being my dad.
This candle was first lit on the 31st of December 2020 and will burn for 96 years 7 months and 12 days.